1.How much weight have you lost so far on your journey and have you hit your goal?
I have lost 25lbs so far. I’d like to loose another 15lbs and add muscle definition.

2. Did you struggle with weight all of your life or did you gain weight after you got older?

I have struggled with my weight most of my childhood. I was in awesome shape as a high school and college athlete. My weight started becoming a problem with my first long term relationship. There was a lot of things going on behind my back and to me, so I ate a lot to comfort myself. It wasn’t until that same boyfriend suffered a massive stroke that left him completely disabled the first 5 months and his family refused to take him home. I didn’t want him going to a state run skilled nursing facility to be a ward of the state, so I decided to take legal guardianship of him.
3. What was that trigger reason that finally caused you to decide to lose weight? 
When I knew I had developed and eating disorder and postpartum depression. Two weeks before my ex’s stroke, we found out my birth control failed. He was a jerk about me not wanting to keep the pregnancy and had a nasty conversation with some ahole that lives up the street from us. The day of his stroke, that guy screen shot the conversation and sent it to a lot of people and they blamed me for his ischemic based stroke. I received so much harassment and was stalked by that guy. He took pictures of inside my car and even damaged it by ripping off the emblem.     When I finally had to leave my job to take full time care of my ex, there was nothing to distract  me and things started to hit me.
I gave up my child a month after finding out because the decision of life and death between two people was on my shoulders. Either I leave and raise a baby alone, or sacrifice my pregnancy so my ex had a shot at living a semi normal life. I was told he was so disturbed from how disabled he was, that he most likely commit suicide or “rot” with minimal therapy in state. He has an 11 year daughter and someone had to take a bullet for her.
So with postpartum came the lonely nights alone. With those lonely nights, I turned to food, the only support I had this whole time. That turned eventually into a full blown binge eating disorder which was my dark secret. After about two months, I was tired of letting my depression hold me by the throat. So I promised myself that for 2016, I was going to fight back like I always have. I checked into therapy with an eating disorder specialist once a week, got a gym membership, and began a life changing wellness program called Yoli. I have not looked back since.

 

4. Give me some examples of changes you made in your life to make bettereating habits.  
Carbs and soda! I have completely eliminated soda from my diet because of how acidic it is. White carbs and processed carbs are completely out also. Since starting Yoli, it has really undone the damage my binge eating caused from the inside out. I maintain a high protein low carb diet to keep the alkalizing process going.


5. When you think back to the foods that you use to eat, do you still have that food today on occasion, or do you avoid it all together, and does it still taste as ‘good’ as you remembered it to?

For myself, I had a psychological connection to food. It was my “friend” when 99.9% of mine turned their backs on me. I avoid the foods all together, but once in a week or so for a cheat meal, I might have some processed carbs or sugar. Since alkalizing and detoxing with Yoli, “bad” foods seem to just make me feel crappy the next day. I guess taste didn’t really play so much of a factor since it was a lot deeper than just eating tasty foods.

6. What plan did you do to help you lose the weight?
I had always known at one point I would have to regain control of my health again. It was just a matter of “knowing” and feeling that moment of absolute rock bottom. There’s no where to go but up.

7. What is your typical fitness routine?
I love HIIT/Circuit training! It’s probably my favorite go to workouts. Beginning of July I began gaining some weight back, and the 24 hour fitness I go to has a class called the 10th degree. So I enrolled and fell in love. One trainer really listened to my story and brought me in to learn foam rolling. He told me I needed to start two a days and add in weight lifting. So I followed his advice and do an hour of 10th degree in the mornings, and 30 minutes at night with 30 minutes weight lifting 5-6 times a day.

8. Everyone has a bad day how do you look past mistakes and move forward?
My biggest mistake was not getting off social media a lot sooner. Some of my ex’s friends are the nasty individuals that our parents warn us about. There was so much shit slinging on Facebook and Instagram. I even had one dick from Vegas tag me on Instagram THE DAY AFTER my ex’s stroke calling me all kind’s of names and saying that I should have had the stroke instead and saying he hoped my boyfriend died. I have every evil thing ever written saved on my iCloud, just in case. People like that are cowards, I’ve been around few of them multiple times already, and they can’t seem to talk without a screen and keyboard in front of them. I have zero Facebook because reading these far from true assumptions only takes a piece of me that I will never get back. I’m so much healthier without it.

9. We all need a strong support system to stay committed, who supports you?
I have the saddest support system ever. I say this whole laughing, but ask me last year and I would have been crying on my screen. My mom especially did not like my ex and had said some pretty horrid things almost exactly a year ago. So she’s out. My friends list trimmed down a lot, and I have maybe 4 strong people to sometimes lean on. My new boyfriend Mike is a huge support also, he actually lost 80lbs on Yoli. I still take care of my ex full time, and he is also my little cheerleader. My best friend Katrina is one of my biggest supporters. I’ve known her since high school and don’t know what I would do without her.

10. What kind of advice would you give to others who are having a hard time getting started?

Look your fears and insecurities in the face and tell them you’re going to win. Embrace the struggle and keep fighting no matter. Life always has its ups and downs, but what matters is how hard we fight back. It’s the most cliche things to say, but the most accurate.

 

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